I have really been on a spiritual journey most of my life... I just did not understand some things with the depth that I do now until probably the last 13 years or so... lol.. one of the many advantages of getting older
. I remember even in high school at the proms and all not really being so much involved in the dances as I was talking with Father Broussard, one of our local priests who usually attended every activity that was held for the young people. He was way before his time as far as giving information and explaining religious topics to me in an honest and open fashion, foregoing the "fear" factor that is present, in my opinion, in most of the organized religions of our time.
I spent many long hours with him in lieu of the dancing and other things that were going on, as I had an insatiable thirst for the knowledge even as a teenager. But that could well have been a product of being practically raised in a Catholic school environment. For so long, I just accepted what I was taught and was told, but once I had enough information and began to see things through my own eyes and probably in my third eye, I began to have lots of questions of the things I had been taught.
About the time I was 14 years old, I was involved in my first major car accident, after which I began to "see" things. Not truly understanding what I was experiencing, I did not know what to do with it. And for a long time, it honestly scared the heck out of me since most of my premonitions involved "bad" and/or stressful or traumatizing events that soon or eventually did happen. So I began to question things.
Then "life" happened...lol.. my children and all... and I, being a single mom virtually all of their lives, was so caught up in providing a good home for them, I had little time for anything else. As they eventually got older into their teenage years, my neverending quest for information returned to me.
After my second major car accident, in 1988, when my children were in their mid teens, the entire experience made a marked impact on me. I lost a very close friend in that accident, and also, I was not expected to live and heard the nurses and other hospital personnel telling my family this, but I could not get anyone to hear me as it is extremely difficult to get anyone's attention when you are trying to talk with a respirator shoved down your throat
. The usual questions arose... "why did I live and why did Max die ?(I felt as though he had so much to offer and was such a caring and giving person)and how in the world did the other person in the car just walk away from it all ?"....."why did this happen to me ?" ..."Is there any way I can have a say so in the outcome of this ?" ...like I said pretty much the usual questions that would go through anyone's mind. So I began my conversations with God.
I prayed as I had never done before as I understood the lessons of the event before too long. I begged God to allow me to live.. for my children.. for my family... for myself. My entire life has changed since then. I am pretty much the same person with the same beliefs but I changed the ways in which I did most everything. For I know, that ONLY by the grace of God have I been able to see my children grow into adulthood and be so proud of the people they have become (lol, in most cases)... to have more time with my mom and be with her in her time of need before her death ... to see the glorious gift of grandchildren and finally to meet David, the love of my life
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I try my best not to be an opinionated person as well as not to be judgmental. I always told my children when they were growing up that simply because one person sees one thing one way and another see it differently... does not mean one way is right and one way is wrong..... it simply means there is more than one way. I believe "to each his own", as long as no one is intentionally hurt in the process.
In spite of all the things that have happened in my life, I would not change even one thing for it could perhaps change the course of things and I would not have all the wonderful and glorious gifts and blessings that I have in my life now. It has happened as it was supposed to.
I still feel, however, that I am just a "babe in the woods" on my spiritual journey and quest for knowledge and answers, for I certainly have much still to learn. I hope to present here readings and topics that I have found that have been of interest to me and have helped me to understand and gain knowledge and lead me to the truth and understanding that I so much desire. I have so muchhhhhh more to post as well... there simply are not enough hours in a day. I hope that you can find words of wisdom and information here that will help you answer your questions and/or simply be of interest to you.
Namaste, Agape, In La Kesh, & Temet Nosce...
I am simply...
starrachal©
aka SpiritedTruthSeeker™
aka GrannyOfHawk®
